By Victoria of Actually Aspling
I often reflect on my childhood, specifically in terms of Autism. I ponder what it would have been like if I’d been diagnosed, would it have made a difference? Every time I come to the same conclusion… Yes. Although things may not have gone drastically differently, I’d have had some understanding, an explanation for things and possibly my mental health at that age would have been better.
Puberty encompasses a whole host of things, but most times emphasis is on the physical aspects; you know growth and especially periods. In school you get the whole sex talk, you learn about your body, but not in an accessible way. No one talks about the psychosocial or emotional dimensions of puberty and how important this actually is.
For me personally puberty was a nightmare; I absolutely hated it. Firstly, my body was changing, and I couldn’t understand why, it confused me. I was always told that “bodies change and develop” but I was never explicitly told it would happen to me, so when it did it was unexpected. I didn’t like the unpredictability of not knowing when my body would change, I was just told it would at ‘some point’.
I didn’t like having breasts and body hair, I remember feeling confused by it all. The worst part for me was wearing a bra and the sensitivity issues that came along with it. In school all my friends were already developed and wearing bras and I wasn’t at that stage yet, but I felt pressured to conform to society’s standards and I bought a bra. The thing with bras is they aren’t designed to be comfortable and finding the right one is a pain; I don’t want lace, frills or glitter, in fact I don’t want to wear one at all. Now as an adult I wear crop tops and sports bras, they are much more comfortable; I just wish I’d discovered them in my teens!
The other focal point of puberty for me was menstruation. I had so many issues with my periods and honestly still do. In my teens I had a particularly heavy flow, intense cramps and sensitivity towards the sanitary products. I would often find myself being sent home from school, where I would lie on the bathroom floor with a hot water bottle and wait for the pain to subside. In my late teens I eventually started the contraceptive pill which helped lightened my periods and helped with the cramps, but I still had issues with products. Sanitary products smell, they are sticky, they don’t fit right, they are just a nightmare (not to mention all the confusion with choosing the right product or brand!). I also found I struggled with irregularity, I didn’t have that predictability in terms of start and end dates, and I found this particularly difficult to cope with.
Luckily, throughout everything I had my mum; she is an absolute legend. She would talk me through everything, even when I’d be stood in car park toilets screaming “It won’t fit in my knickers!”, she had the patience of a saint! I felt able to talk to my mum, she understood me, and I didn’t feel like I could talk to my friends about this stuff; even though they had those sorts of conversations. Puberty talk made me feel incredibly uncomfortable, I would always shy away from the topic when it was brought up; I found it embarrassing. Although, it doesn’t help when school explains it in terms of ‘Sammy sperm’ and ‘Emma egg’ – I didn’t understand that. I much prefer explicit technical language with lots of pictures, not silly stories.
Classes at school were mortifying… to be honest school wasn’t a pleasant experience for me generally. I would spend mornings crying to stay home, I now know these at meltdowns. Things would get so bad that on the odd occasion my mum would let me stay home; if I’m honest I needed the time to rest and process everything, I needed a mental health day and boy did it help. I wasn’t very academic and struggled through school in terms of grades, I ended up choosing GCSE subjects based off my interests and I regret that. I have a standout memory of school, and that was being told by a teacher I was going to fail; more specifically “You aren’t going to pass, would you like me to phone your parents to explain?”. I wasn’t given the support I needed to thrive, I didn’t have a label, I was undiagnosed and struggling.
It was at this point that my mental health took a dip. I hated my school classes; my anxiety had risen, and I started experiencing symptoms of low mood. I was scared to go to school because I was bullied, specifically by people in one of my subject classes. I was the joke, I stood out, I was the weirdo, and people picked me apart and used it to bully me and there was nothing I could do. My teachers were unaware, and I didn’t get support anyway, so I didn’t think telling them would make a difference. I did have one stand out teacher in high school though, Mr Gallagher, my drama teacher, he inspired me to go on to take a-level drama. He was supportive, caring and made me see my own potential. I wish more teachers were like this.
I had very few real friends in school, yet none I could personally relate to, so often I felt loneliness. I spent years camouflaging, trying to fit in, clinging onto my friends and mimicking their social behaviours. I would change my interests to fit in, change my clothes, edit my personality, just so I felt like I belonged, when in reality, I was born to stand out.
At this point my life was a mess, I was struggling and incredibly unhappy. I had so much to contend with; physical changes, making friends, fluctuations in mood; it was a lot. Puberty is a difficult time, and for Autistic individuals it’s made harder by intensified experiences. Heightened sensory sensitivity, communication differences and predispositions to mental health conditions. I often look back on my experiences, wishing I could give my younger self advice, that I could change my path. I wish I could whisper in my ear “my lovely, you are Autistic” because I feel this would have helped me so much.
I survived puberty, scraping through, clinging onto the coping mechanisms I developed. I survived…but barely, and this is the reality for so many.
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This blog has been kindly written by a guest blogger, to share their experiences of travelling when autistic.
Travelling by tube and train and meeting friends at destination points in London was something I got into late in life and it’s obvious by the anxieties I experience at such an advanced age in my 30’s.
I see Aspergers coupled with my inexperience in life as the reason why travelling is something that causes me anxiety. I turn into a lost child unsure of what to do. When ever I travel there is always some sort of trigger. Something that makes me either anxious, frightened, or overwhelmed. I’ve even called my mother to ask for help.
When I’m lost and I’m trying to read a map it is always what I call a “traumatic” experience for me. The only thing visible in my mind is the map jumping out at me as I try to work out how to get from Point A to point B. I panic and I want to cry. This tends to happen if time Is approaching to meet a friend and I don’t want to keep them waiting, or if I have a job interview or an appointment and I’m worried I won’t get there in time.
Train stations are a huge trigger point when it comes to hightening my anxiety and overwhelming me. Stations are always busy with people. The arrival and departure boards with rows and rows of yellow numbers and writing jump out at me, confusing me. There is the loud tannoy announcements. The bright lights in the station. Add these to my constant need to observe what’s around me and my brain has a meltdown. My mind is concentrated on a dozen different things going on at one time. So much so that I don’t know which to focus on. The anxiety I have felt as I try to read the arrival board and work out which platform to enter is an exhausting experience.
Directions. A simple direction from a friend over the phone such as ‘turn left, follow the roundabout, continue walking to your right and then take another right turn’ is not only stressful for me, it is stressful for the person on the other end of the phone. As soon as the directions are given I start to panic, my brain goes into overload. I start to breath heavily, I pick up the phone, call my friend and start shouting down the phone asking which roads to turn. This increases the anxiety level for my friend/s who sometimes end up having to walk down to get me.
International travel or travelling to other places in England such as Manchester or Brighton alone is a big no no. My friends would never suggest it to me knowing my anxiety and my mother would advise against it. Travelling the world opens us up. It’s liberating. Unfortunately I’m not yet ready to take that step.
There are always ways to try and cope with any situation we are faced with. It will take me time to learn how to map read without starting to feel overwhelmed. If I am at a train station I try to stay focused on one thing. I look at the arrival/departure board, I listen very carefully to the tannoy announcement, though it isn’t easy. In extreme cases I approach one of the station staff for help, though I do not like doing it. It has for the most part worked for me and the anxiety isn’t as dibilitating, though I still have my moments.
I have now started to understand why I experience so much anxiety the way that I do and why I react the way that I do in certain situations, especially when it comes to travelling. It’s somewhat comforting to understand the trigger points. My brain is very rigid when it comes to time. I always feel anxious when travelling to places I do not live, that’s just a part of the spectrum. I phone my mother or a friend when I feel lost or overwhelmed because I’m reaching out for comfort or reassurance. I am unable to understand basic instructions or directions, not because I’m stupid, but because my brain processes information very differently from a nuerotypical brain.
Most importantly, for me to cope with daily travel I need to remember to try and stay calm.
This blog has been kindly written by a guest blogger, to give advice to others on the spectrum who want to start dating.
The world of online dating can be shallow and ruthless and for some people like us on the spectrum quiet intimidating and scary.
When I decided to create an online dating profile a few years ago it was something I went into with naivety and massive expectations of finding a life partner. Instead it turned out to be a life journey.
It was something I needed to do no matter how scary. In the end it proved beneficial for me in learning how to socialise one on one with people I had never previously met.
Creating a profile
When I created a profile I used just a tiny picture of my face. I was shy and lacked confidence. My profile was uninspiring and didn’t say much.
To push myself I would message a profile of somebody that I thought was interesting. Often times they wouldn’t reply back and I would take it to heart and felt upset about it. Sometimes if I messaged somebody and they didn’t reply back I would send multiple messages in the hope they would end up replying. And sometimes they would actually reply back and when they did I wasn’t sure what to say to them. I would often send replies in quick succession within an hour.
I didn’t have any friends and I hardly ever travelled anywhere unless it was to my job, and that was local. Although I was an adult ‘stranger danger’ was always in the back of my mind due to my inexperience with people, my trusting nature, and having trouble with understanding a persons intentions.
Starting the conversation
I would start out small and ask them their names and what their jobs were, their hobbies, and I would tell them mine. As is usual with online dating they would ask to meet up in person. I did not know how to take trains and I didn’t feel comfortable travelling to other parts of London. Most of all I didn’t know them so I was frightened that they may have ulterior motives to laugh at me or harm me. I decided to compromise; I would meet them local to me and In familiar surroundings and make sure it was crowded. I didn’t want to and was frightened to step out of my comfort zone.
Meeting someone in person
Meeting someone in person after talking with them online was a difficult experience for me. I either spoke too little, or I spoke too much.
I have a passion for film and history and when I spoke about these two subjects I would go into immense detail. I would add in timelines and specific historical dates or talk at length about set pieces and soundtracks used in films. When it was time for the other person to speak about their interests I would have my head down and not say much. I would also find myself agreeing with what ever they said, even if I didn’t agree with it or not share that interest. I was desperate to impress.
I was oblivious about reading body language and understanding chemistry. Often times if I liked the person I would start bombarding them with messages 2 minutes after departing from the date. I would ask them how they found the date, if they liked me, and when they wanted to meet again. It always the same outcome, they wouldn’t.
This scenario kept on repeating itself. It went the same way each time. Sometimes if a date went wrong I would cry once I got home. I couldn’t understand why nobody wanted to date me, why I kept messing it up.
I didn’t want to give up. As awful as I was on these dates nothing would change in life if I just gave up. I decided I had to continue with the online dating. I had to learn to face fears. Although it wasn’t going to be easy I decided to step outside of my comfort zone.
A person I was speaking to online suggested we meet in the centre of London. It was a suggestion that terrified me. I stay in my local area and I never traveled by train but it was something that I needed to do so I said yes. I asked my mum to sit down with me and explain how the train system worked. I then did it; I stepped outside of my comfort zone. It wasn’t easy. It was an unnerving experience as I find places that I do not travel to overwhelming but I had a nice evening. It felt good that I had stepped out and conquered the impossible. Things started to change.
My whole perspective on online dating shifted. I had begun to realise that finding a partner can not be forced, that meeting people that I wouldn’t normally have met and in a one on one setting was beneficial to me learning how to socialise.
I started slowly travelling to places in London to meet people for dates. Finally I had found the confidence and courage to travel on trains and to wider areas in my city. I also began to feel confidence within myself. On dates I was forced to talk about myself, my interests, and my dislikes. I had to force myself to listen and to ask questions to my dates.
If I contacted somebody online and they didn’t reply it started to not bother me. I’m not what they are looking for. It’s a natural part of dating. It happens to everybody. If I messaged somebody and they messaged me back I would no longer bombard them with messages. I took it slow. If I liked someone I met on a date I would no longer message them at the end of the date. I’d leave it a day or two and then send them a message. The pictures on my profile started to appear more confident.
I started to see the benefits of my new found confidence. Some of the people that I was meeting for dates wanted to see me again….on a friendship basis. Throughout my teens and much of my twenties I was a loner and I never had any friends, now I have a group of them. They are very accepting of me and my autism.
I use online dating occasionally now. I see it as a bit of fun, a chance to meet new people and improve my social skills. If I meet a partner then great. If not it’s a chance to make new friends. Me joining the world of online dating was one of the best decisions I ever made. It wasn’t and isn’t easy but It has helped me along in life and helped me to understand that dating is something that happens naturally and is not to be forced. Don’t take it serious. In time things fall in to place and in hindsight I was never ready for a relationship anyway when I first went into online dating. As somebody on the autistic spectrum I overcame a massive hurdle.
Online dating tips for those on the spectrum
1. Disclosing your autism
When you create a profile you don’t need to disclose you are on the spectrum. If you send somebody a message and do not get a reply then leave it and move on, do not keep sending them messages. If you get a reply or somebody messages you do not send them messages every 10 minutes. Take your time and reply when ready and give the other person time to message you.
2. Having no expectations
Always approach a date with no expectations. If you are nervous, they are also nervous. If when you leave the date and you like a person do not send them messages or ask them if they like you. Leave it a day or two and then send them a message, be neutral. Ask them how they are doing and see how they reply. Remember; if they aren’t interested in you it is normal. Don’t take it personal. It’s a hard part of dating and meeting people in general.
3. Talking too much and going into too much detail
When you talk about yourself do not go into too much detail. They don’t need to know specific dates and timelines of your favourite historical event. You don’t need to describe your favourite film and give a reel by reel analysis. I wouldn’t mention things like politics or religion. Keep it light. And do not talk about odd subjects like UFO encounters. Remember to ask your date questions about themselves and their interests. Listen to what they are saying and show an interest.
4. Leaving a bad date
Occasionally you might meet somebody who from the offset is very rude or stand off’ish. If you feel uncomfortable make an excuse and politely excuse yourself from the date. Do not take offence as it is them who have an attitude, or maybe they have had a bad day. Unfortunately things like this can happen when you choose to meet somebody you were talking to online.
5. Staying safe
Stranger danger. Do not overanalyse. People that are online are there for the same reasons you are. Always meet them in a public place and tell somebody where you are going it it makes you feel safer. It’s important to be safe but don’t go overboard with it.
Autistic individuals and their families face far more barriers than others when visiting tourist venues and London is no exception. With its busy streets, sights, sounds, and smells competing for space; London is a sensory overload for autistic tourists. This guide offers advice and links on how to cope and with the challenges facing autistic individuals and their families wanting to visit London.
Having advanced preparation and information can be extremely helpful to autistic individuals as they can prepare themselves for changes before their visit. By informing your autistic family member on the information about the place you are traveling and the challenges that may be facing them. it allows you to manage expectations, reduce anxiety, and assist with planning. Advanced information can be anything from parking to security checks. Other methods of advanced preparation such as accessibility guide, visual tours, or visual stories can be found here.
Travelling throughout London can be super stressful with train delays and tube stations being a sensory overload. However, there are a few things you can do to make these journeys less overwhelming.
- One thing you could try is using apps such as city mapper. The app will plan your route, tell you how much the journey will cost and the times of the upcoming trains for your journey.
- Many of London’s attractions are within walking distance of one and another so when possible avoid taking public transport if its a difficulty that the individual faces. If it is not possible to walk seek other forms of transport such as a bus or an Uber which will be a quieter and more manageable for those with autism.
- Inside tube stations there are help point information machines if you or your family member is struggling looking for staff. TFL (Transport for London) trained and experience staff in working with a range of special needs and disabilities such as autism and will be more than happy to help.
- One struggle that many autistic individuals face is that their disability is invisible and therefore is harder for people to notice. Many autistic individuals have trouble standing on moving transport and therefore need the disabled seats however struggle with social interaction and communication to ask and as they have an invisible disability people do not tend to notice. Therefore carrying a blue badge or a hidden disabilities lanyard and ID card will help people to notice and understand that you require the disabled seats when traveling on transport.
Autistic friendly places to visit
Being autistic doesn’t mean that you have to miss out on fun activities and places to visit. London is an extremely accommodating city with a host of opportunities for families to enjoy such as theatres and museums that are relaxing and friendly for people with neuro-diverse disabilities such as autism. For example, The Lyceum Theatre in London is popular for its relaxed performances of the Lion King. Having collaborated with the National Autistics Society, its staff are well trained and always willing to help. Attractions such as the London Eye is just as accommodating and offer discounted tickets to guests with disabilities. Amongst the friendly places to visit, are cinemas; which now host special screenings for guests with disabilities.
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Two useful tools have also been developed that may help you to find more autistic friendly places you may want to visit while in London.
- The first is a map that was created by the London Autism Group which shows locations ranging from advice and support groups to recreation and sports facilities that offer autism-friendly services within London.
- The Second is Euan’s Guide which is a website where you can search for places to visit that meet your needs and requirements for your disability.
I hope that you find the information and the links in the subheadings Advanced preparation, Transport and Autistic friendly places to visit, both useful and helpful in helping to remove the barriers faced by autistic individuals when organising your trip to visit London.
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This week I had the pleasure to speak to Tyla from Adulting with Autism. She shared her motivations behind starting a blog and her experiences finding work as an autistic female. Huge thanks to Tyla for sharing!
1) What inspired you to start your adulting with autism blog?
“When I was getting ready to leave university there wasn’t much help or support affordable and available for someone like who was going on to live a fully independent life. A lot of my peers were moving back home or had a job lined up and for many reasons I had neither but also couldn’t find any information that was tailored for autistic people on how to tackle such a big change and get yourself up to adult ‘right’.”
2) How would you like your blog to help other autistic people that are becoming adults?
“The blog is a mix or personal anecdotes documenting my mess ups and tips but mainly just following my journey into / through adulthood. So I like to think it’ll help others feel less helpless and alone. There are plans for the future where I’ll hold more practical adulting skills workshops.”
3) What do you think the preconceptions of autistic people are and how would you say they are different?
“Preconceptions are just that it’s a social disability and you’ve difficulty making friends when it goes beyond that. The comorbid conditions, isolation from then world around us and just generally not being on the same page as everyone else is tiring. It’s a draining, a simple catch up with friends can have your head in a spin if more than one person talks at once. Emails worded to be polite when really theres an urgency mean we get in trouble at work like autism doesn’t present itself the same way in every person but on the hole, we’re sound people who are often misunderstood.”
4) What do you think is most difficult about being an autistic adult?
“At the minute for me dating and relationships, by time I’ve finished with work, made sure my house is in order and tied up all the important loose ends I find I don’t have the capacity to deal with meeting new people and then when I do getting them to understand they have to communicate with me differently and that what I say is what I mean is hard. So many times lads say to me “oh I’ll take the hint” and I’m there searching for the hint because to me there wasn’t one! Haha.”
5) What do you is most difficult about being autistic and finding a meaningful job?
“I thinking what constitutes as meaningful job is different to everyone, some people need their job to define them I just need to be happy in my workplace and not be stressed out over stimulated by the work. So my job as a Data Analyst plays well to my autistic traits of pattern spotting and ability to do repetitive tasks and hyper focus but beyond that, it doesn’t reflect me as a person. I like to think I’m creative and my ideal role would be to put my interest in social media to use and consult small to medium sized business and educate them on how best to use social media for their company. My main difficulty in doing that is right now I don’t have the skills to be a freelancer or the experience to work for someone else which I’m sure is the case for many people.”
6) What advice would you give to others searching for work?
“Rejection is redirection. And don’t hold back from applying for a role, even if you think you’re not good enough let them (the employer) decide. Who are you to decide really you don’t have enough information to make that call, you could be the most qualified person who puts there name forward so just do it!”
7) What advice would you give to employers looking to hire autistic employees?
“If I’m honest I’d really question why you want an autistic person specifically and if it’s based on any stereotypes about the way we work then make sure you ask in the interview how the person works and likes to be managed. Also set your boundaries and make things clear, it’s better to tell them they need to be in at 9am than mark down they’ve been late 3 times and ask why because you hoped it’d sort itself out. “
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This blog will give you 20 tips to help you raise an autistic child and support you along your journey.
My name is Jo, and I am a Pathological Demand Avoidant autistic. My husband is also autistic, and we are raising an autistic child with Global Development Delay.
If you are at the beginning of the autism diagnosis journey with your child, I have been there. I have jumped through all of the procedural hoops, fought all of the fights to get my son what he needs, and most notably, I am autistic myself.
It’s great that you are researching and looking for guidance on how to raise, support and understand your autistic child. Raising a child is hard when you have thesame neurological wiring… it’s incredibly hard when you don’t.
If you are at the beginning of the journey, I expect that you are going through a wide range of emotions, feeling totally out of your depth, and having fear-of- the-unknown thrown into the mix for good measure. That is a completely normal reaction. But the more guidance and support that you get, the more confident you will be in supporting and helping your child in the best way that he or she needs.
Most importantly, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. It can be a very isolating experience, especially in play groups, but there are thousands upon thousands of parents going through the same thing that you are.
So, here are twenty tips to help you on your journey:
1. Like neurotypical children (non-autistic), autistic children are all different.
The spectrum is not a line where you can mark where your child sits on it. It is more like the image shown below.
Some things that work with one autistic child won’t work with others – you will need to experiment with what works and what doesn’t with your child.
2. Talk to and learn from autistic adults.
They are generally more-than-happy to answer any questions you may have.
Many neurotypical (NT) parents of autistic kids feel that the autistic adults are nowhere near as severe or impaired as their children, so those autistic adultscouldn’t possibly understand their family’s struggles.
The truth? We WERE those children. The difference between autistic children and autistic adults is that we’ve had years of practice with masking, self-regulation, social interactions, and how to manage our limitations– autistic children haven’t had that practice or necessary experience. Just becauseautistics don’t meet NT developmental milestones at the same pace doesn’t mean they’ll never get there.
Autistic adults are a gold mine of knowledge on different tactics, things to try, things to avoid, etc. Mostly, though, they have first-hand knowledge on how autistic children’s brains work.
3. Accept your children for who they are. COMPLETELY.
Your child is different and has been given the gift of seeing and experiencing the world differently. No, it’s not all sunshine and rainbows-– every gift is balanced out with a measure of hardship and impairment; but, trust me, if your children receive the love, understanding, support, and guidance tailored to their needs, they will thrive.
Famous autistics include Einstein, Issac Newton, Mozart, da Vinci, Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Picasso, Bach, Melville, Tesla, Twain, and Anthony Hopkins. I could list off a lot more, but you get my point. Many of the aforementioned trailblazers had severe struggles.
They are a square peg in a round-peg world. No amount of pushing or turning will make them a round peg.
5. Fight, fight, FIGHT for the right support, therapies, diagnoses, and school placement for your child.
The government in the UK does not budget enough for autistic supports/diagnostics, so you need to be prepared to fight for what your child needs. I hear in the US, the availability for quality supports varies from neighbourhood to neighbourhood.
You know your child better than anyone in the world. Don’t be afraid to question doctors or specialists-– they are getting a snap shot image of your child, whereas you live with them 24-7. Trust your instincts, and feel proud of yourself for doing the hard work of advocacy. It’s thankless, but well worth it for your child.
6. Manage their sensory needs.
One of the main struggles for autistics is managing sensory issues– both hypersensitivities and hyposensitivities.
There are 8 different senses: sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch, vestibular, interoceptive, and proprioceptive. You may not know much about the last three on the list, but they are very important senses when it comes to the autistic sensory profile.
Autistics can suffer with something called sensory overwhelm which is often caused by experiencing too much of one type of sensory input faster than the brain cannot process or filter it. This can cause panic, anxiety, and a fight-or- flight response which can display as violence. It’s important to note, though, that most autistic people are not violent.
It is possible to tell when someone is reaching the point of overwhelm– this is the time to either remove the offending stimulus or remove the person/child from that environment before overwhelm occurs.
Autistics can also be hypo-sensitive to sensory stimuli which means that they may actively seek out sensory input. This is known as sensory seeking.
Sensory seeking children may be clumsy, have great difficulty in sitting still, enjoy bouncing off of furniture or trampolines, and enjoy chewing on clothing or items.
7. If your child has sensory issues, find a good occupational therapist specialized in sensory management.
An occupational therapist with the right background can not only help your child by providing the stimuli they need to regulate their sensory systems, butthey can also teach you how to recognize your child’s signals that they areover- or under-stimulated. They can also tailor a sensory diet that you can provide your child at home. When a child is regulated, they are calmer, happier kids who are far more likely to be able to sit still, interact, and concentrate.
8. Give extra time for information processing.
Autistic brains process information differently from their NT
counterparts. Some can process information very quickly and can therefore react or respond at incredible speed whereas some process information very slowly and take longer to react or respond.
This means, in layman’s terms, that when you ask someone with slowerauditory processing speed to do something, it takes longer to understand what has been heard and then more time to work out how to respond to it or what to do to comply with the request.
For the person making the request, this can be quite frustrating and they often make the same request using different words to ensure the question has been understood. The problem here is that, when you make the request using different words, their brains have to start processing this new sentence all over again. So, by asking again differently, you are doubling the processing time. They can become frustrated with too much information and lash out or feel assaulted.
The tip here is, if your child has a slow processing speed, give them extra time to process. If you ask a question or make a request, wait for their response. They are often not ignoring you, they are processing what you have said to them.
This also applies to activities such as trying to leave the house with your child– give extra time for them to process what they need to do: put on shoes, put on coat, pack a backpack, etc. Having slower processing speed does not reflect on intellectual abilities at all.
9. Non-verbal children can hear and understand more than you think.
A common misconception of non-verbal children is that, if they don’t communicate with words, they can’t understand words either. Many non- verbal children understand words and conversations long before they can talk and may go on to be prolific writers or even speakers.
Don’t presume your non-verbal child can’t understand what is being said around them. Be careful of what you say, as talking negatively about how their struggles affect you or others within their earshot will still affect their self- esteem and self-worth.
10. Adapt your parenting style to suit your child’s needs.
Before you become a parent, you have an ideal in your head of what kind of parent you are going to be, what your child will and will not be allowed to do, what boundaries will be set, or the places you will frequent with your child.
When you have an autistic child, you need to throw that ideal out the window and adapt your parenting style to fit what your child needs.
Child-led parenting works very well with autistic children as they will indicate toyou what they can’t tolerate or what they enjoy doing– these things may be totally different to what you expect them to be. Listen to them.
11. Let them stim!
Stimming is short for self-stimulatory behavior. Whether it’s arm flapping,rocking, squeaking, fiddling– let your child stim. Whether you find it embarrassing or unusual, stimming actually serves a sophisticated purpose for your child. It brings joy, self-regulation, and calm– why stop that?
By shaming this behavior or stopping them from stimming, you can cause them anxiety, frustration, and unease.
12. Don’t shout.
I’m guilty of shouting when I have reached the end of my tether and myfrustration is through the roof; but you will find, as I have, that shouting at an autistic child does not achieve the response that you are hoping for. You will generally either be totally ignored or you will cause a great deal of anxiety and potentially a fight-or-flight response in your child.
13. Know when to push and when to back down.
Where sensory sensitivities and overwhelm are concerned, your child will have good days and bad days. It was explained to me like this: overwhelm is like a bottle of cola. Every time you experience anxiety/sensory difficulties the bottle is shaken. After it has been shaken enough times, the lid blows off and overwhelm erupts.
Some days when your child wakes up, the cola is still and calm in the
bottle. Some days your child wakes and it is like the bottle has been shaken several times already. The tip here is to learn to read the signs that your child’s internal pressure is high or near the eruption point.
You can push your child to do more when their mood is better and their tension lower. Pushing them when they’re already overwhelmed feels traumatic and abusive to them. Learn when to push and when to back down with your child. It will reduce meltdowns and overwhelm explosions.
14. Encourage their passion/special interests.
I cannot express how much joy is experienced when an autistic is indulging in their passion or special interest. Whether you think it isn’t age-appropriate (a teenager watching kids TV or a five year old interested in quantum physics), or if it’s something that you think is weird (the history of sewing machines or the evolution of the light bulb), encourage it.
Chris Packham is a great example of how a special interest can turn into a very profitable and long career. His special interest is insects and animals. He has now been the insect and animal expert on many programmes over the years and loves his job.
15. Steer clear of ABA therapy.
This tip is in capitals because it is so incredibly important. ABA is a behavioural therapy that essentially tells your autistic child that there is something wrong or broken in them and that they need to pretend to be like everyone else in order to fit in or to be considered a functional member of society. It is widely despised by the autistic community.
If you are in the US, you’ll get pressure from doctors, schools, and otherprofessionals to enroll your child in ABA. Please don’t put your child through
this. Adults who have gone through ABA experience higher incidence of PTSD.
16. Find good support groups for you and members of your family.
There is no doubt that NT families who have an autistic child can struggle with the strain of their child’s impairments and needs. If your social circle or usual support network does not have any autistics in it or have any experience with autistics, then a good support group for you or any member of your family is especially helpful.
There are a great deal of different Autism Support Groups on Facebook; some helpful, some awful. You’ll need to try out different ones until you find some that you are happy with, but I cannot define how helpful talking to other people in the same situation will help you and relieve some of your anxiety and stress.
There are also different support groups offline where you can take your child who also have fun days and outings for siblings of autistic children. Definitely worth checking for any in your area.
Everyone needs support in their lives at some point. With the marvels of technology, you can find a wealth of support online to help you through the bad days.
17. Understand demand avoidance.
All autistics experience a degree of demand avoidance. This can be perceived as the child being deliberately difficult or stubborn, but in reality, you are asking them to do something and their brain has hit a brick wall. They simply can’t follow the demand.
This is not intentional and they have very little control over it. There are different ways to get around demand avoidance– offering choices is a very effective way as then the demand is turned into a choice that is easier to accept.
There are many conditions which are associated with or highly-correlated with autism, like Sensory Processing Disorder, ADHD, and Pathological Demand Avoidance. Among other individual attributes, having demand avoidance to an extreme, pathological degree (as the name states) is the defining impairment.
Getting frustrated at them will not make them overcome the demand avoidance; it will just make it worse. It can feel important to “break” thewillfulness of the child so that they are able to comply with school and, later, work demands.
But, this trait often becomes a passionate driver for leadership and leads to powerful advocacy for self-industry, social justice, and personal
autonomy. It’s better to empower this trait and encourage making wise decisions and provide options than to attempt to punish and shame the child into compliance.
18. Work with the food aversions and sensitivities.
It is very common for autistics to have some amount of food aversion. This can be caused by a sensory difficulty (texture, taste, smell), whether the food is dry or wet or even by the colour of the food. In some instances, the autistic child cannot tell you why they cannot eat something. For me, it’s broken eggs(where the yolk is broken and mixes with the white). I simply cannot eat a broken egg and if the yolk splits in the frying pan, then it goes into the bin, and I start again. I have no idea why this is.
The important thing here is to accept that your child cannot eat specific foods that they are adverse to and try to slowly introduce other foods into their diet.
Under no circumstances should you ever force-feed your child or shame them for not eating the food that you have given them. All this will achieve is creating an issue with food in general and foster a great deal of anxiety for your child. Later, food-associated trauma can manifest as life-threatening eating disorders.
19. Tell your extended family your child’s autistic with confidence and positivity.
This can be a very anxious time for you as well as your child.
Choose when and whom you want to know and make notes of the important points that you want to raise. It is very easy for your memory to fail you during an important conversation.
The main thing here is to be positive. Your child needs you to be their advocate and that starts in the home and with extended family. There are many positives to being autistic. Do not focus on the impairments that your child may also have.
Older generations will likely have a different viewpoint of autism, and you need to be prepared to answer any questions they may have. Be prepared for the “don’t accept labels” conversation.
20. Love your child.
This may be the most important tip of them all. Even if you don’t understand him or her yet, just love your child. So many autistic children have low self- esteem and low self-worth because they don’t feel loved or accepted for who they are. But, like your child, too.
The difference it makes in the confidence and self-worth of the child is immeasurable. Take it from someone who knows.
So there you have it! Your 20 top tips on how to raise your autistic child.
I hope that you have gleamed something useful along the way here and that you continue to research and learn as much as you can for your child.
By Jo Richardson
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In this blog I will talk about the anxiety demon and how this impacts me as an autistic adult.
I have always been different, although I did not understand why until I was diagnosed last year as being autistic; as my son started his autism assessment.
Among other aspects of being autistic, one that has always affected me strongly is anxiety.
Anxiety is like having a voice in your head whispering all the things that can go wrong in any situation and not having the means to shut it out. For some of us, anxiety is part of daily life; a constant battle to overcome the anxiety to sometimes do the simplest of things.
People often believe that anxiety is situational or only happens during stressful periods. This isn’t entirely the case; like a lot of autistics, I overthink everything and replay conversations and events in my head on a constant loop while my anxiety demon is chastising my choices, actions or social interactions; making my anxiety peak.
It convinces me that I have made a fool of myself, that I’ve been misunderstood or that I’ve made a mistake and making me dread being in these situations again in case I repeat history.
My experience of anxiety
When faced with new situations or social events, our anxiety demon’s voice grows louder, demanding our full attention; overwhelming all other thoughts that we are trying to process.
“What if it’s too loud and there are too many people?”
“What if I get overwhelmed?”
“When will I be able to leave?”
“What if I say something stupid?”
“What will I be expected to do or act like?”
“What’s going to happen and when?”
“Will people dislike or laugh at me thinking that I’m weird?”
These are just some of the things that my anxiety demon says to me when I consider socialising or going somewhere new.
As an adult, I am able to manage my anxiety to an extent; I have worked out what situations I need to avoid, what I can do to prepare for new situations and how to self-regulate.
Our children do not have this experience yet. Most young children do not understand what they are feeling or why, so they need us to be able to read their signals and understand when and why their anxiety is high and, most importantly, how to help them manage it.
At this time of year, our children are probably experiencing a high level of anxiety having either started school or advancing a year.
So many aspects are out of their control as well as having both educational and social demands put on them continuously that can trigger their demand avoidance in a situation where they cannot easily avoid these demands.
The first year of school can be so daunting for any child but more so for autistic children. It may be their first time away from being at home with a parent or carer full time, everything is new, theydon’t know the environment, they don’t know what is expected of them, whether they’ll get overwhelmed, what the other children will be like, whether they’ll make friends, will they fit in, etc.
Consider for a moment that you are facing all of these things and your anxiety demon is constantly whispering that it will all go wrong, that you won’t cope, that no one will like you, that you’ll fail.
When I was at school, diagnoses weren’t common place and the schools weren’t as quick to recognise the struggles that autistics experience as they are nowadays, so it was a case that I had to try to manage my anxiety myself.
This took the form of leaving classes as soon as they finished so that I could spend some time on my own in a quiet bathroom before rushing off to the next class as well as spending break times and lunchtimes alone and away from everyone else in the playground.
When I got home, I would spend all of my time alone in my bedroom immersed in video games that I could escape into; blocking out reality and all other stimuli for a while. This would quieten the anxiety demon as I was focused so heavily on the game that I couldn’t hear it as much.
Without doing this I would often spiral into meltdown or would lash out at family members because I had, unknowingly, been masking all day (hiding my anxiety and differences to my peers) so when I returned to the safety of my house, all of the anxiety and overwhelm from the day would explode out of me.
Nowadays there are many different tactics, equipment and toys that can help autistic children manage and cope with their anxiety as well as different methods of signalling others that their anxiety is high and that they’re not coping. I would have found these invaluable when I was young.
An important fact to remember is that an anxious or overwhelmed child is incapable of learning effectively. They are not able to process all of the information they are being given. Therefore it is imperative that measures are taken in order to help them to regulate their anxiety and overwhelm while at school.
By Jo Richardson
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Sensory Survival: Living with hypersensitivity, being overwhelmed and experiencing meltdowns as an autistic adult
So here we are in Autism Awareness month – the one month out of the year where more of the general public take an interest and are more open to learning about Autism and Autistic’s lives.
I herald it. It is a great opportunity for both neurotypicals and neurodiverse to come together and openly discuss what makes us different and how we can all live together in this wonderful world of ours.
What I want to explain to you today is a first person’s viewpoint of sensory hypersensitivity, overwhelm and meltdowns.
Our sensory sensitivities wield a great deal of power as they can push us to overwhelm and meltdown as well as bring us an abundance of joy. There is also hyposensitivity in a sensory area such as having a very high pain tolerance or not being able to smell strong odours.
The more I have learnt about Autism, the more I have recognised and understood myself and aspects of my instincts that I didn’t before. I have always been classed as ‘highly sensitive’ to pain and physical contact. I struggle with bright lights and noise, I hate swaying or spinning motion, I cannot cope in big crowds where there is a lot of competing noises and my sense of smell is often overpowering.
When someone says that they have a sensory sensitivity it is a common misconception that they mean that their awareness is just more acute, more focused. The reality of sensory sensitivity is that the sensory input is so greatly intensified that it can become all-encompassing and overwhelming in a short period of time, unless the person is able to take measures to reduce the overwhelm or remove the offending sensory input. It often causes the person experiencing it to not be able to take in any other input at that time or think of anything other than the stimuli that is overwhelming them.
Some autistics that have a hypersensitivity to touch can be caused physical pain when they are touched; no matter how lightly. Their brain misinterprets the signals from the touch and causes the pain reaction.
When I am in a crowd; even if it is just in a shopping centre, it feels like the noise is so loud and imposing that it is all I can think about and feel. It is like the intensity of the world has been turned to its highest setting and it feels like I have dozens of people in my personal space; all talking loudly at the same time and I am trying to understand what they are all saying. This is the start of overwhelm. It feels like my brain is being squeezed and all of my muscles tense up. My heart races fast and my breathing quicken. At this point I lose the ability to think straight and my thoughts sound like they are overlapping and nonsensical. This is when the fight or flight response kicks in and everything in your mind and body are screaming at you to run. To get out. To get away from this stimuli as fast as humanly possible. The other side of this coin is the fight mode; where you are so desperate for the stimuli and all of the sensations you are feeling to stop that you lash out and push, kick, scream, anything in order to make it all stop.
Overwhelm can happen with any sensory sensitivity; whether it be sound, taste, touch, vestibular, proprioceptive or interceptive. All of which are triggered in different ways in correlation to the individual’s sensitivities.
Depending on how your anxiety and sensory sensitivity levels are on a given day, the speed of overwhelm occurring differs. If your levels are high; overwhelm will occur much more quickly than if your levels are low.
If you are unable to self-regulate or decrease the overwhelm, then a meltdown can occur. Meltdowns are often mistaken for tantrums in children as they will throw themselves around, scream, cry or lash out much like they would during a tantrum. The big difference between the two is the cause of the outburst. A tantrum often occurs because a child is not getting their way whereas a meltdown happens because the child is so overwhelmed that the fight or flight response has kicked in and they have not been able to self-regulate to calm themselves or be removed from the stimuli. It’s a desperate, anxiety ridden experience and the child or adult suffering through it has little to no control over how they are feeling at that moment because their survival instinct of fight or flight is in overdrive.
I recently experienced a meltdown, a relatively mild one and it was an exceptionally frightening and distressing experience. I was overwhelmed and was unable to remove myself from the overwhelming stimuli. I was stimming to try to self-regulate but it wasn’t working.
Suddenly it felt like the walls were closing in on me. My head was spinning, I couldn’t think straight,I started hyperventilating and I could barely talk. I felt completely helpless to these feelings and I just wanted to climb out of my skin and run away as fast as I could. I sobbed and had no idea why. I had no feeling of panic but it felt like my whole body and mind were screaming, though I couldn’t understand what they wanted or how to make it better.
It was a sobering experience as it reminded me first hand of what my son and all other autisticchildren and adult’s experience. It feels nothing like a tantrum when you are living that moment yourself.
Once overwhelm or a meltdown has passed, the person who has experienced it often feels completely drained of energy. An accompanying headache is also common as is the lingering feeling that everything they are experiencing is too much for them to handle. They often need to hide away from the world to allow their sensory system levels to return to a much lower state before they can attempt to be exposed to any overwhelming stimuli again.
There is a phrase in the autistic world which is ‘social hangover’. This is when the autistic has socialised and, although they may not have reached a high state of overwhelm or meltdown, they need to rest and give themselves self-care in order to recover from the social event. It feels very much like a sensory hangover.
There are different techniques and apparatus that can be used to help calm a person who is experiencing overwhelm or a meltdown; a dark, quiet room with a light projector (that projects swirling colours or an image on the ceiling or wall) helps as it removes most of the stimuli from the outside world and watching the peaceful, flowing lights or colours helps.
Other good tools are bubble tubes or bubble walls; watching the bubbles float and bounce their way to the top of the tube or wall is very calming.
Another commonly used tool is noise reducing headphones or ear plugs that will greatly decrease the level of auditory sensory input that they are experiencing.
One thing is imperative; NEVER, unless there is literally no other option available, ever restrain an autistic whilst they are in a state of fight or flight, in overwhelm, in meltdown or any other time, to be honest.
One thing that is very very common in autistics is that we abhor being restrained or held against our will. All this will achieve is causing a great deal more stress, anxiety and overwhelm to the individual and if they are not already in meltdown; this is a sure fire way of causing them to meltdown.
One technique that is very effective, I have found with my son, is using a sensory diet at home as well as seeing an occupational sensory therapist once a week.
With this, the individual does specific exercises or activities that reduce and calm their sensory system. If this is done every day; especially before a social event or a situation where they will be exposed to overwhelming stimuli, it will enable them to be able to cope for longer and will lengthen the time that overwhelm takes to occur.
Living with hypersensitivity can be hard and it can greatly limit the options you have when planning activities, social events or even a trip to the shops. However; there are many wonderful benefits to living with hypersensitivity. If it is in your visual sensory system, you can get lost in the beauty in the world; such as trees, art work, sunsets etc. If it is auditory, you can find true joy in music or be able to hear a greater distance with clarity. With taste you can pick up even the lightest ingredient in a meal. You get my point.
As with most things in life, there is a balance; the Yin and Yang so to speak. When you experience the world with sensory intensity, you have both the ability to feel ecstatic joy at the simplest things as well as be crushed by overwhelm.
I, personally, would not want my sensory sensitivities to be dulled or reduced. A walk in the forest brings me such peace and happiness; simply by looking at the trees and the different shades of green in their leaves, the fresh scent of the woodland and listening to the birds and squirrels living their lives; it’s a magical experience that I would never want to be without.
So please do not focus on the negatives. Yes, they can have a big impact on your or your loved one’s life. But the negatives can be lessened with techniques or tools. They can be supported by knowing situations or stimuli to avoid, by using a sensory diet or using items that you can transport with you such as noise reducing headphones or tactile toys (like Squishies etc.).
The thing to focus on is the happiness it can bring; go to the places or have the experiences that bring you joy and comfort. Celebrate the things that you can feel that the majority of the population cannot and do self-care activities often to keep your sensory system calm.
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By Jo Richardson
Being an autistic woman is not easy. Especially when you are un-diagnosed, self-diagnosed or have been diagnosed later on in life.
A large attributing factor to the difficulty is the fact that you have grown up knowing that you are different; struggling to fit in, sometimes rejecting society and not wanting to fit in, trying to understand social communication, romantic advancements, verbal communication and often being shunned or rejected by neuro typical women because you are different to them and viewed as either broken or a threat.
I have spent my life on the outside; believing with every fibre of my being that there was something very wrong with me as I just didn’t understand my peers. I didn’t understand how to make friends,or how I was meant to act in order to keep friends. I didn’t understand why I was bullied so harshly throughout my school life; why there was this invisible target on my back that other people seemed to be able to see but I couldn’t. I felt like an alien trapped on a planet with a species that I couldn’t relate to or fit in with, no matter how hard I tried.
Because of this I have suffered, for 29 years, with mental health issues.
I started anti-depressants when I was eleven because I felt like I was deficient and everything was too hard for me to cope with.
Throughout my school years, my aim was just to survive it.
When I went to college, I found a group of people that were all different from the rest of our peers. The outcasts, rejects and rebels of the world. For the first time, I felt like I belonged somewhere. However, with hormones kicking in to full blast, my ability to cope with my own intense emotions that I couldn’t understand or identify (let alone other people’s) was badly floored and I spiralled dangerously out of control; bouncing from relationship to relationship, getting into dangerous situations without realising they were dangerous. Although I had found people that I could finally relate to, I still didn’t understand them, their motivations, intentions or what they wanted from me so I just followed their lead and went along with anything that they suggested.
By the time I was eighteen I had left my family home and I had my first breakdown. I was arrested and charged with (car) insurance fraud as I couldn’t deal with the responsibility of being an adult and running my own life. Thankfully, I did not serve any time as my doctor had written a letter stating that I was currently suffering from five different mental illnesses; classifying me as clinically insane and, therefore, ill-equipped to be able to handle going to prison. I served a suspended sentence that I did not understand.
At this point I was diagnosed with severe anxiety, clinical depression, borderline personality disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder and avoidant personality disorder.
I was eighteen.
Unbeknownst to my doctor at the time or I, I was actually a severely depressed autistic with OCD.
The depression and severe anxiety caused by the fact that I thought there was something wrong with me, that I couldn’t understand the world and that my peers either shunned, bullied or abused me.
I spent my whole life trying to fit in and appear ‘normal’. It was only when I was diagnosed that most of the pieces fell into place for me.
I was lucky – I was able to get diagnosed; albeit much later in life than was mentally healthy for me. For autistic women who are not diagnosed and have mental health issues, the prognosis is far worse.
If you are unable to be able to cope with making phone calls, that you don’t understand the support systems or how to ask for help, that the forms are too confusing to complete or that your demand avoidance is so high that you hide away from trying to get help, there is currently very little support out there to guide you through. You are left to cope on your own and many female autistics, at some point in their lives, have self-medicated with alcohol or drugs, just to try to stop what they are feeling.
The experiences that I have heard from other autistics of their time spent trying to get support or help or have spent time in psychiatric facilities makes my blood run cold.
Phrases that I have heard autistics describe their experiences in the Mental Health system are;“Scary and overwhelming”
“I just didn’t understand what they were asking me”
“They didn’t understand that I was overwhelmed and shutdown”
“They didn’t listen to me. They ignored me telling them that I believed I was autistic and kept saying that my impairments were caused by mental illness; not autism”
These aren’t phrases that suggest the help and support that should be given within the Mental Health system.
A big problem in this country (UK) is that a vast percentage of the mental health medical society still does not understand that there are fundamental differences in the characteristics of female and male autistics.
Therefore, when they are dealing with a female (un-diagnosed) autistic who doesn’t display the male characteristics associated with an autism diagnosis, the most common diagnosis that seems to be given is borderline personality disorder which, although it does share a small number of characteristics with female autism, is completely different in the way that the woman’s brain is wired, how she thinks and how she behaves- the motivations and reasons for the behaviour or actions of the woman.
The terms ‘manipulative’ and ‘self-serving’ are often used and they are given medication used to treat BPD but does nothing to actually help relieve the mental health issues that they are experiencing.
It seems to be a common experience of autistics who, when they sit in psychiatrists offices, feel lost, anxious and overwhelmed while being asked open questions that are not specific enough to be understood by the autistic patient, leading them to be labelled as ‘difficult’ or ‘not trying hard enough’ when the patient wants to be open and honest and to answer the question, but simply doesn’t understand the question enough to do so.
Their specific autistic needs are neither acknowledged or supported, such as their sensory needs, if their processing speed is slow, overwhelm, autistic shutdown or if they have great difficulty understanding verbal communication.
Then they are released back into the world without the support and help that they struggled so hard to ask for.
This is a system that desperately needs to be fixed. It is failing so many autistic women simply because they do not have the training or education in female autism to be able to identify it.
They go through their standard tick list of characteristics and symptoms (that doesn’t include female autism) and diagnose with the label that fits the most ticks; regardless if some of those ticks are actually characteristics of female autism. Without recognising that the patient is autistic, those characteristics muddy the mental health diagnosis waters, often leading to an incorrect diagnosis and, therefore, treatment. As a by-product of misdiagnosing because of the female autism characteristics, the true mental health issue can be missed or ignored as only certain aspects of it fit the incorrect diagnosis (making it the diagnosis with the most ticks).
By increasing awareness, knowledge and understanding of female autism, we can help women such as those who suffer under the Mental Health system or those who think there is something wrong with them but have only heard about the male characteristics of autism.
There are fantastic female autistic role models and advocates out there. Just two of many are Sarah Henderickx – the leading specialist in female autism in the UK who is also autistic herself and Greta Thunberg – an incredible autistic sixteen year old who is challenging understanding of climate change on the world stage, have many videos on YouTube that are phenomenal and need to be seen by as many people as possible to raise awareness and understanding of female autistics.
Together we can make a positive change for autistic women everywhere and the world as a whole for our children and our children’s children because, lord knows, it needs to be changed.
By Jo Richardson
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